Being a single mom, I don't often have time to get out and meet anyone. And after my trial and failure with online dating, my social life is pretty uneventful.When someone asks me what I did on my "free weekend," I lie, because the truth is I'm either at the gym, writing or anything else by myself.
So, a while
back, I found myself accepting a “Friends with Benefits” package that was not-so-delicately
put on the table by a guy I was out on a date with one night. After a few
failed attempts at dating, I was over not having company during my free time
and, as it turns out, he was tired of not getting laid.
He was hot
and I was bored, so why not?
We didn’t
get far before I realized he wasn’t looking for someone to hang out with; he
just wanted some ass. My availability was limited to a parenting agreement
(#singleparent) and his was whenever it was convenient for him and only for
sex. After a few attempts on his part to
sext his way to a lunchtime rendezvous and school-night booty calls, I ended
that deal.
What I
thought would happen when I said “yes” to the proposition was we would actually
hang out, do friend things together and throw a little sex on it. What he
thought was going to happen was I would be a straight up booty call.
There is no
‘friend’ in booty call. Sigh. So, the ‘friends with benefits’ deal was a lie to
get sex, but I probably knew that already.
Let’s be
honest, friends with benefits is just a fancy phrase that is subject to select
interpretation of the offer. Guys really want a no-strings, convenient booty
call and girls are secretly hoping for a happy ending like in the movies. But
life isn’t a movie and that guy they are bangin’ isn’t looking for true love
inside their vagina. He’s just trying to get laid without the implications of
being in a relationship – like feelings, commitment and monogamy.
I’ve met a
lot of people (mostly guys and a few girls) who said they’ve had successful FWB
arrangements. But how are they measuring that success? On a scale of one to
selfish (how often their needs are met)? Or whether they cleanly dodged a
partner catching feelings and complicating their game?
A true “friends”
with benefits situation is about having mutual needs met. But unless that
mutual need is sex, most of the time, someone is going to get the short end of
the stick. One person always ends up giving more but getting less. So, why not
just spell it out instead of dressing it up as something that has the potential
to blow up in someone’s face?
Because being
a booty call doesn’t sound as appealing as being called a ‘friend’ and no one
wants to feel used.
Casual relationships
based on sex may feel empowering and liberating at first – hell, some girls might
even feel like a sexual rebel - but they don’t work. I guess they’re not
supposed to, or they would turn into real relationships. Because by definition
of activities, an FWB is just a relationship that no one is calling a
relationship so there won’t be an obligation to either party; while a booty
call is just about ‘gettin’ dat azz.’
But, I
digress.
I’ve been
offered the booty call deal more times than I’ve been taken out on an actual
date – sometimes even on the date. Most guys have been upfront about it, while
others were a little vaguer; and still there were guys who played the
relationship game to get what they wanted – which was the opposite of what I
thought I was getting. After a while I learned the not so subtle cues when the
situation wasn’t as obvious and started calling it like I saw it:
Guys who say they don’t want a
relationship on the first coffee ‘date.’ They mean it but then they continue to text to hang out –
usually for a movie and drinks, followed by a rush for sex before the movie
even starts.
Guys that keep the conversation
one-sided and say they don’t want to be like the other ‘douche’ guys – several times in the same
conversation. But then they go in for that first kiss at the first opportunity.
Actually, they try to get as far, as much, and as soon as possible.
If a guy lets on that he is newly single – he’s on the rebound and looking for
a reintroduction to the single and dating life – through sex. He’s emotionally
not ready to commit to another relationship. He might say he is and he might
even think he is, but he’s in a transitional period. It’s the period between
having a girlfriend/wife and finding out who he is without the intimacy of a
relationship, but still collecting on the sexual benefits if someone will pay
out.
Guys that will send you a picture of
their junk too soon and ask for pics of your lady bits. When you’re in a relationship,
sexting can be fun. In a new relationship, if that’s all you’re doing, it’s a
red flag. Don’t send pictures of your bits and pieces to anyone and if you do,
make sure your face isn’t in them so you can deny that shit when it gets out.
If you’re not going out on actual dates
and he’s not acknowledging or willing to say that you are dating. Maybe he would like to say that you are both two people who
are just ‘spending time together and having fun, seeing where things go.’ Go
where? Pay attention: If you’re not seeing the outside of each other’s
apartment/house – ever – then things are only going to go as far as the sex
stays interesting and good. But the sex will never be more than what it is
until it becomes about more than just sex.
See how the
running theme is just about sex? But here’s the kicker: if you give an inch,
they will take the mile; and when things come to a messy end, their defense is that
you knew from the beginning they didn’t want more than a casual fling/booty
call, but you kept coming back.
What about
monogamy? There is no expectation to commitment in a booty call (or FWB), so there
isn’t an obligation to be faithful. The guy (or girl) you’re having sex with
could have sex with someone else who could be having sex with someone else and
so on. For as much as any guy has told me he is dead afraid of getting a
sexually transmitted disease, not one has made the first move to use protection
or ask about my sexual history. The only question I’ve been asked is if I’M on
birth control. Babies aren’t an STD. Herpes and AIDS, though, that's real.
Then there’s
the reality check.
Someone is only
using you for sex. And if you’re sticking around hoping for a relationship, 99
percent of the time, there’s no fairy tale ending. Feelings get hurt and one
day that person is either going to get married or be in a relationship and you
will wonder why it’s not with you, when you gave them everything.
It’s because
you gave them everything … and expected nothing. So, you got nothing. You were
a placeholder until they found someone who didn’t settle.
That takes a
toll on your self-esteem and what you think you’re worth, and could affect
future relationships.
Maybe I’m
over-analyzing, but sex does lead to feelings (although, admittedly, one-sided),
no matter how many rules are set to ensure a successful, emotionally detached,
sexual relationship. I’m not saying people should keep their naughty bits under
wraps until they are ready to commit or that sex can lead to love. However, let’s
not kid ourselves about what we’re getting out of a selfish arrangement, and
don’t get mad when it’s figured out to be very little.
No pun
intended.